Losing, letting go, and moving on
Growing up, I've always wanted to have a group of friends like the one I saw in films. I wanted to have friendships like Miley and Lily, Carly and Sam, you know, friendships that seem like they would last a long time through all thicks and thins. But sometimes losing people isn’t something that you can control. It used to be so hard for me to understand why people leave constantly. To me, people leaving felt like a personal attack on my character. I hated when friends became nobodies when we used to be so close. Losing people scared me because it made me feel like I was not good enough. Losing friends made me wonder what I did wrong and what I should’ve done to make them stay. A few years ago, I was so sick of having multiple failed and lost friendships. I wondered if it was because I’m a bad person - if I was too much or not enough for my friends. I fell into a cycle of self-blame where I believed everything was my fault. Where I have no right to be ang...
